When I am upset, food is my chosen solace. Like many people out there a donut or fries are not only enjoyable after a sucky day of work or an unfulfilling job search, but they are also a reward for surviving the not so fun aspects of being a responsible adult. Unlike normal addictive substance that people can quite cold turkey (alcohol, nicotine, caffeine), there's no way to just give up food. Lately my relationship with food has not been all that stellar. For years I have been a secretive and shameful eater...I'm not really sure who I am hiding from since there's no one around to judge me except myself. I guess taking it one meal at a time is the best encouragement I can give myself. After a really bad work day (one of many lately) I was able to avoid the donut shops and the drive-thrus on my way home from work and instead stopped at the great wholesale grocery store where I bought cherries, grapefruit, and nectarines. Picked up some beautiful dried fruits too. Not exactly sugar-free, but at least their natural sweets to tame my out of control sweet tooth.
I continue to be a work in progress and will probably battle my weight for years to come, but for now, I am going to just work on today.
1 comment:
Oh...I can sooooo relate!
I have battled weight for most of my life.
At 60, suddenly I started walking..around my backyard, after 3 nasty visits to the hospital...something to do with digestive disorders...
I got a pedometer...and in three months...I replaced a food addiction with a 'walk' addiction.
I lost close to 30 lbs...Unfortunately, I found that I couldn't digest solids without a couple of thousand steps....and this helped the weight loss.
I strive for 20,000 steps daily, but even 12000 will knock off the weight...
I walk around my backyard, thinking, thinking, composing poetry (mostly tanka) and damn IF this exercise hasn't sharpened my poetry too.
So, I relate to a lot of what you write. And cherries, nectarines, etc...are wonderful brain food.
Lady Nyo'...who also loves pork.
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